I remember you once told me, the mind may forget but the heart never forgets. When the mind has not yet forgotten, the memory is doubly strong. I took the bus and fell while boarding, it felt strange doing it alone. I came home and felt that the place was completely different without you. The hall still remembered you. I went to my room, and I remembered you there, this morning, looking at me in the way you do when I wake up. I miss you. These are tears of memory, tears of remembrance, tears of having you here. In your room, the pillow and the blanket smells of you. My mind still remembers, my heart remembers profoundly. I see you as you were last night, every night, smiling at me from your bed. The place smells so strongly of you. I hope I will never forget. I know my heart will never forget. When the sheets are clean, there may be no more evidence of you…. but my heart still beats when I think of your gorgeous brown eyes staring into mine, when I hear your calming, soothing and sexy voice in my head, when I imagine you buttoning your shirt and tucking it in, when I walk down a place we’ve been to, when I think I hear you whisper, “I love you, Rachel”, in my ear… It beats for you, because it remembers.
I will remember this trip, the first of us being together, the first of many, the first of everything.
