longings

Babe, do you long for me?
Of course I do.
What do you long for?

I long to be able to share everything with you, without having to wait for us to be able to talk.
I long to come home to you and hear everything about your life.
I long to have you sit next to me, like in the bus or something.
I long to become a physical part of your life.
I long to just feel your presence.
I long to read books with you, watch tv with you.
I long to pray together with you, at home.
I long to make love to you.
Can we make love every day?
If we’re not too tired, of course.
Never too tired for that!

Do you long to hold hands and walk in the park together?
Yeah.
I long to hold hands and do things together.

I long to come home to you, and share my day with you, stuff that happen at work.
I long to catch you in the corridor unawares, and tackle you and kiss you all over.
I long to hold you for a long long time.
I long to bring you shopping.
I long to have you next to me in church, at worship and prayer and stuff.
I long to pray with you and have bible study with you.
I long to go out with you, bring you to eat yummy food.

I long to go to bed with you, and wake up with you.
Babe, can we go to bed at the same time everyday?
Sure, sweetie.
We can go to bed late.
Really? How late?
We can go to bed at 11. I want to go to bed with you together, it’s nice to do stuff together before we sleep.

I long for you to be the first person I see when I get up and the last person I see before I go to bed.
Me too. I long to wake up to you right next to me.

I long to one day be able to cook really good food for you, and have you tell me honestly, wow you cook so well!
Me too.
You’ll have to wait many years!
I think I’ll like it. I’m not very picky with food.
Yeah, right.

You know what?
What?
I even long to wake up at 5am in the morning just so I can go for prayer meeting with you. I don’t even like to wake up in the morning!

Lasting love… longs for the joys of being together even when separation is necessary. One way to evaluate the depth of a romantic relationship is to consider how you feel when you are apart… This longing to be together is natural for two people who love one another. ~ Robbie Castleman

you make my heart melt

“The first time I saw you, I wrote your name in my heart. And I carry it with me everywhere I go. And because God saw that I wrote your name in my heart, he gave you to me.”

I love you.

coming home alone

I remember you once told me, the mind may forget but the heart never forgets. When the mind has not yet forgotten, the memory is doubly strong. I took the bus and fell while boarding, it felt strange doing it alone. I came home and felt that the place was completely different without you. The hall still remembered you. I went to my room, and I remembered you there, this morning, looking at me in the way you do when I wake up. I miss you. These are tears of memory, tears of remembrance, tears of having you here. In your room, the pillow and the blanket smells of you. My mind still remembers, my heart remembers profoundly. I see you as you were last night, every night, smiling at me from your bed. The place smells so strongly of you. I hope I will never forget. I know my heart will never forget. When the sheets are clean, there may be no more evidence of you…. but my heart still beats when I think of your gorgeous brown eyes staring into mine, when I hear your calming, soothing and sexy voice in my head, when I imagine you buttoning your shirt and tucking it in, when I walk down a place we’ve been to, when I think I hear you whisper, “I love you, Rachel”, in my ear… It beats for you, because it remembers.

I will remember this trip, the first of us being together, the first of many, the first of everything.

conversation with my new mummy

Khoi
hi
this is chut
chinhs mom

Rachel
hi mom

Khoi
how are you

Rachel
i had a really great time with chinh!
he’s on his way back now

Khoi
i hop so i away prye for him

Rachel
awwwww thank you
i will come and visit you soon
as soon as i can

Khoi
okay i wait you

Rachel
how are you?

Khoi
im fine you miss chinh are you

Rachel
yeah, he left this morning
i miss him now!

Khoi
he loves you alot

Rachel
i love him too
thanks mom
he loves you a lot too
you have to teach me how to cook!!

Khoi
i hope your guy happeness toghether

Rachel
thank you mom
i hope you’re happy too

Khoi
khoi and y they are eating so why i m talking with you

Rachel
soon chinh will be home to eat your food too!
i think he misses your cooking
i miss it too

Khoi
okay now i m go to the bed godnight rachel have god dream

Rachel
ok
good night mom
take care okay?

Khoi
rachel welcome to my family

Rachel
thanks mom
thanks for welcoming me!
i really thank you
its an honor
coz you are all so awesome
i’m really grateful